this is my last resort. i have forced to reach out over the internet in search of somebody who may honestly tell me what i need to do. this is how it all began..
almost a year ago i met a guy who i thought was amazing. For a year of my life this guy was everything to me. he defined who i was. he was all i needed. i spent every second with him. yes, he had became my life and i was finally truly happy!
toward the end of this year though, we began having problems. i realised that his temper was something that i had not realised was scary. he began to snap at the littlest things and could not keep it under control. the spark was slowly dying, although we still loved eachother as much as always.
the problems were not ending and one terrible day, after hours of arguing, we both decided that we could not do it anymore. we decided to take a break.
about a week later i woke up to heart breaking stories of this guy. stories of him getting drunk at parties and sleeping with other drunk girls. while i will never beable to tell you how much this hurt, im sure most of you know.
i was suposed to be the only girl that he loved and he promiced me i was, but it never stopped him from having sex with other girls.
the guy i new quickly changed into the type of guy who went to these parties every weekend and it scared me. i was still trying to get over all of this when the guy suddenly appeared back in my life.
telling me that i was not allowed to be with anybody else but him because he hasnt forgotten about the year and he still loves me as much as always.
although this made me the happiest person in the world, just to know he still cared. i knew that i could never fully have him back. i new that he belonged to the life of partying and he belonged with those girls now.
after this i found the guy promicing me his love constantly. starting to have sex with me again and more often. even asuring that i was known by his family. this all seemed amazing until i realised that every weekend this guy would go to those parties and if he happend to end up with a girl, he wouldn't try to deny it because we were not offical.
it broke my heart every single time.
i tried to get revenge, i tried scaring off the girls, i tried giving up, i tried forgetting him, i tried getting mad, i tried moving on, i tried everything i could to make the hurt stop and it would not.
i was his girl on the side that was always there for him, no matter what! i was the girl that was in his heart.
then there was other girls, the party girls that he could for some reason not resist! i do not understand why.
this past week though has been a change. i began going to the parties that this guy goes to and while there, not seeing him be with any of those girls. he began keeping intouch with me everyday. even asking me to stay overnight. he began kissing me constantly and telling me that i was his girl. even calling me on the telephone and saying nice things. maybe this is to make sure that i will always be at his side..
deep in my heart i know that this boy wants to live the party life. he wants to be with those girls. i know because he still talks to them and sometimes when we fight he will try to make me mad by saying that he sleeps with them. he also has gotten even more violent when he gets mad. to a point where i cannot control him. that is if he gets mad though.
and everytime i try to move on and meet a new guy, he will beat this guy up and scare him away.
i think that this guy wants me and wants to be single at the same time.
i love him more than anything in the world and by the way that he fights for me and always comes back into my life, i know that he cares greatly about me. he even tells me.
the bottom line is, i need serious help! i need to know if i should get rid of this guy or struggle to keep him. i cannot see myself possibly getting rid of him unless it is nessacary.. so i would like to hear some advice on how to make this work.
i just need to know how to make him be as inlove with me as he used to be, or if somebody could tell me how to prevent him from partying with those girls? How do i make him want me and only me?
i just need to know what to do to be happy again and i would greatly appreciate some advice?
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